Friday, July 29, 2005
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Men cont'd
Men have this infantile, fundamental desire to feel needed, better at everything than anyone else (be it other men or women) and some even feel the need to be popular.
Yeah, I've taken a long hard look in the mirror. Perhaps I'm over-generalizing and stereotyping. Perhaps not. Some would outwardly show their needs and desires while others hide behind a mask.
openness is not a strong point among Asians. We tend to be more private. Imagine a scenario where you meet someone for the first time. If the person is Australian or American (Caucasian or one brought up with "western" values), he/she has a tendency to be much more open with himself/herself.
The internet is a great place for Asians. It gives us the chance to break the ice, be more open and even more daring without really revealing who we are. After all, on the internet, I can be a Superman for all I care and nobody would really know.
The draw back of the internet is that people tend to take chats and things said online too seriously. C'mon...To me, it's just another media and up to the discresion of the reader whether or not to take it seriously. Of course, when it's serious news, such as a bombings in London or an aftermath of a disaster, it's serious news and a great place to gather volunteers in disaster aid.
But then again, there are always those that would abuse the medium. Imagine having a live feed (not live feed as in food but a live broadcast feed) on your website. Basically, you can be the owner of a form of media (something like a television channel). Isn't that powerful? Of course, if your content is crappy, then no one will ever think of coming to view your website.
In any case, men no matter how effeminate they may be are still clueless when it comes to women. Period.
Yeah, I've taken a long hard look in the mirror. Perhaps I'm over-generalizing and stereotyping. Perhaps not. Some would outwardly show their needs and desires while others hide behind a mask.
openness is not a strong point among Asians. We tend to be more private. Imagine a scenario where you meet someone for the first time. If the person is Australian or American (Caucasian or one brought up with "western" values), he/she has a tendency to be much more open with himself/herself.
The internet is a great place for Asians. It gives us the chance to break the ice, be more open and even more daring without really revealing who we are. After all, on the internet, I can be a Superman for all I care and nobody would really know.
The draw back of the internet is that people tend to take chats and things said online too seriously. C'mon...To me, it's just another media and up to the discresion of the reader whether or not to take it seriously. Of course, when it's serious news, such as a bombings in London or an aftermath of a disaster, it's serious news and a great place to gather volunteers in disaster aid.
But then again, there are always those that would abuse the medium. Imagine having a live feed (not live feed as in food but a live broadcast feed) on your website. Basically, you can be the owner of a form of media (something like a television channel). Isn't that powerful? Of course, if your content is crappy, then no one will ever think of coming to view your website.
In any case, men no matter how effeminate they may be are still clueless when it comes to women. Period.
Friday, July 22, 2005
Black n White
2 Cars with the same number plates? A truly unique experience. Today we took delivery of the new 9-5. Specs wise, it's got slightly more push than the previous one. Also, it's got a 5 speed tranny compared to the old 4 speeder.
They've also thrown in more 'freebies' such as auto dimming rear-view mirror, electric folding wind mirrors, cruise control, bluetooth hands-free, HID headlamps etc etc...I guess there's more bang for your buck these days.
Considering the fact that the 9-5 is about 20,000 more than the M6 (at the time I bought the M6), it's got heaps more stuff built into it. The tree outside the house has also been chopped down. Boy it sure is sunny without the shade provided by that 25 year-old tree. But then again, now I won't have to worry about parking my cars by the sidewalk anymore...no more bat pooh and tree sap stained paintwork.
I collected my new V3 today. The black one. It's got 1 additional feature which is the video camera compared to the silver one that has it missing. I guess they didn't really bother to add it in the later series silver phones cause there might be some people who'll complain that they paid premium for it but lacked that feature.
Anyhow, RT's my new guru and he's supposed to give me pep talks ever so often. The guy's been in for 3 months and he's already made a hefty five-figure sum...dang I'm missing out. I just gotta try harder I guess but it ain't easy.
After the Genting trip, I feel so ripped off by NSC. I'll spare the details but sufficed to say, next time I'll have to be more careful when dealing with her. Gosh!
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Peanuts! Get your peanuts!!!!
Just out of curiosity, how many Singapore households have an annual income above S$50,000 or $100,000. A ballpark figure would suffice. To say that a S$600,000 per annum income is peanuts given that the person who has been paid this amount brings in to an organization hundreds of millions of dollars is not incorrect. However, to say it in defence of the CEO of a charitable organization whose sole income is through the donations of 2 out of 3 citizens of this country is laughable and only a person who is narrow minded and lacks any feelings of responsiblity towards the donors would say it.
That said, Mrs Goh Cheok Tong, wife of former Singapore Prime Minister Goh Cheok Tong mentioned that in comparison to the hundreds of millions of dollars that he (Mr Durai, CEO of the National Kidney Foundation) has brought in to the foundation through donations, his annual pay package of between $500,000 and $600,000 is peanuts.
In light of what she has said, it seems to me that if a person earning $600,000 is peanuts to her, what is someone earning $25,000 or even $50,000 annually? Trash? If to the wife of our former Prime Minister now Senior Minister, and former leader of the governing political party of Singapore, $600,000 is peanuts, I for one, certainly do not hope that for the rest of the majority of our population that earns under $100,000 per year, are not considered monkeys. Afterall, as the old saying (and I believe most people are familiar with it) goes, "Pay peanuts get monkeys".
If I were her press secretary, I'd resign just about now. The amount of damage control he/she has to do would definitely warrant a drastic pay raise (so that he/she doesn't behave like a monkey). The political ramifications towards that statement will be severe. I'd question our government this.
"Are Singaporeans so affluent that a prominent person who is linked to the government can claim that an annual income of $600,000 is "peanuts"? The complacency and insult that comes with that statement to all of us is simply too harsh to put into words. How can ANYONE let alone the wife of our Senior Minister say such a thing?"
If you're saying that in defence of a person who is known to have openly lied under oath in the court of law, you're making a mockery out of our legal and judicial system and obviously stating the fact that there are people "above the law" in this country.
I believe that an investigation into the misleading and misuse of publicly obtained funds through donations and charity events is in order and that Mr Durai has committed perjury in the highest order. Should I say more or would further floodgates of litigation be opened? Am I considered defaming anyone with this post? I do not have any intention of doing so and it should not be taken as such. However, the public nature of this case, along with the comments that have been made provides me with the conclusion that publicly donated funds have been misused and like most of the other Singaporeans who have donated before to the NKF, would like to see how every single cent is spent in order to decide to contribute in future.
That said, Mrs Goh Cheok Tong, wife of former Singapore Prime Minister Goh Cheok Tong mentioned that in comparison to the hundreds of millions of dollars that he (Mr Durai, CEO of the National Kidney Foundation) has brought in to the foundation through donations, his annual pay package of between $500,000 and $600,000 is peanuts.
In light of what she has said, it seems to me that if a person earning $600,000 is peanuts to her, what is someone earning $25,000 or even $50,000 annually? Trash? If to the wife of our former Prime Minister now Senior Minister, and former leader of the governing political party of Singapore, $600,000 is peanuts, I for one, certainly do not hope that for the rest of the majority of our population that earns under $100,000 per year, are not considered monkeys. Afterall, as the old saying (and I believe most people are familiar with it) goes, "Pay peanuts get monkeys".
If I were her press secretary, I'd resign just about now. The amount of damage control he/she has to do would definitely warrant a drastic pay raise (so that he/she doesn't behave like a monkey). The political ramifications towards that statement will be severe. I'd question our government this.
"Are Singaporeans so affluent that a prominent person who is linked to the government can claim that an annual income of $600,000 is "peanuts"? The complacency and insult that comes with that statement to all of us is simply too harsh to put into words. How can ANYONE let alone the wife of our Senior Minister say such a thing?"
If you're saying that in defence of a person who is known to have openly lied under oath in the court of law, you're making a mockery out of our legal and judicial system and obviously stating the fact that there are people "above the law" in this country.
I believe that an investigation into the misleading and misuse of publicly obtained funds through donations and charity events is in order and that Mr Durai has committed perjury in the highest order. Should I say more or would further floodgates of litigation be opened? Am I considered defaming anyone with this post? I do not have any intention of doing so and it should not be taken as such. However, the public nature of this case, along with the comments that have been made provides me with the conclusion that publicly donated funds have been misused and like most of the other Singaporeans who have donated before to the NKF, would like to see how every single cent is spent in order to decide to contribute in future.
Men & Women
Russell Peters said in one of his stand ups that "Indians(Asian Indians that is) cannot live without a bargain and Chinese cannot give a bargain" well, it might hold true for the two cultures but the point in quoting that is this:
WOMEN CANNOT GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT COMMITMENTS AND MEN CANNOT GIVE COMMITMENTS.
A woman would simply say "how can you call it a relationship if there are no commitments?" - True but it's still what men want. Plain and simple.
From the beginning of time, nature has had it such that women can more or less only have 1 child at a time (with the exception of a few that can plop out twins or more). So what does nature do? Nature allows the male human (homo sapien) to mate with more than one female in order to procreate itself faster. Or so us guys would love to think.
It's not as simple as blaming everything on our basic instinct or Id. Since we've developed into a so-called intelligent species, there's this wonderful (to women that is) thing that psychologists love to call Superego. It's the part of us that give us our moral values. The part that tells us that cheating on our soul-mates is wrong. The part that tells us that taking away the life of another human being is wrong. The part that controls us. The balance between the two is the Ego.
Unfortunately, most of the time, when it comes to sex and relationships, in men, our Id takes over. I've heard & read countless girls mention "I would love to settle down with a man who's got a stable job, good character, faithfulness, is good looking blah blah blah. Well, unfortunately, when someone like that pops up, usually, there's more than one woman eyeing him.
Women hold themselves to higher moral values than men do. Granted that there are naturally some men who hold themselves to these high moral values as well but they're as rare as sighting an aurora borealis at low lattitudes and when you do see one, it's an amazing sight. Even to men (well, we find it more incredible than amazing).
Lets not kid ourselves. Moral values in the last 30 years has taken a dip much like a bear market. Women, with new found confidence and independence are beginning to behave this way as well. To be honest, if the two partys want the same thing (most probably fun between the sheets for a night or so), let it be it. As men, we always realize that even though we might take our soul-mates for granted, a high percentage of the time, we're just out for some gratification and reward for that thing between our legs. If ever someone invented some other form of gratification that feels as good to us, he or she has struck gold.
So, to my female friends reading this, don't be so hard on men. It happens and there's little that you can do about it (unless you take some drastic action like that Bobbit character). Being married and being denied sex after marriage by the spouse is equal, if not worse than chemical castration. Trust me, I know.
WOMEN CANNOT GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT COMMITMENTS AND MEN CANNOT GIVE COMMITMENTS.
A woman would simply say "how can you call it a relationship if there are no commitments?" - True but it's still what men want. Plain and simple.
From the beginning of time, nature has had it such that women can more or less only have 1 child at a time (with the exception of a few that can plop out twins or more). So what does nature do? Nature allows the male human (homo sapien) to mate with more than one female in order to procreate itself faster. Or so us guys would love to think.
It's not as simple as blaming everything on our basic instinct or Id. Since we've developed into a so-called intelligent species, there's this wonderful (to women that is) thing that psychologists love to call Superego. It's the part of us that give us our moral values. The part that tells us that cheating on our soul-mates is wrong. The part that tells us that taking away the life of another human being is wrong. The part that controls us. The balance between the two is the Ego.
Unfortunately, most of the time, when it comes to sex and relationships, in men, our Id takes over. I've heard & read countless girls mention "I would love to settle down with a man who's got a stable job, good character, faithfulness, is good looking blah blah blah. Well, unfortunately, when someone like that pops up, usually, there's more than one woman eyeing him.
Women hold themselves to higher moral values than men do. Granted that there are naturally some men who hold themselves to these high moral values as well but they're as rare as sighting an aurora borealis at low lattitudes and when you do see one, it's an amazing sight. Even to men (well, we find it more incredible than amazing).
Lets not kid ourselves. Moral values in the last 30 years has taken a dip much like a bear market. Women, with new found confidence and independence are beginning to behave this way as well. To be honest, if the two partys want the same thing (most probably fun between the sheets for a night or so), let it be it. As men, we always realize that even though we might take our soul-mates for granted, a high percentage of the time, we're just out for some gratification and reward for that thing between our legs. If ever someone invented some other form of gratification that feels as good to us, he or she has struck gold.
So, to my female friends reading this, don't be so hard on men. It happens and there's little that you can do about it (unless you take some drastic action like that Bobbit character). Being married and being denied sex after marriage by the spouse is equal, if not worse than chemical castration. Trust me, I know.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Another late night entry
Ever wondered where the turning point in your life is? I've given it some thought and from what I recall, there are two turning points in my life. The first was when I was about 10 or 11. Miss Yip, my scout teacher denied me the chance to lead as a cadet scout just because during the promotion day, I suffered severe diarrhea and had to head home.
I never questioned her but she promoted a junior over me. I wasn't sour at the fact that I wasn't made second six but it disappointed me that I had to forgo leadership due to something that was beyond my control. Somehow, that made me feel to this day that I have little control over my life.
Which brings me to reason why I enjoy driving so much. Why? Simply because I feel that I'm in control. The destination is determined by me, the route is determined by me and the speed and control of the vehicle is determined by me. Mom once asked me why I enjoyed driving so much. Well, I guess now that I've thought about it for more than 15 years, this is the reason.
My second turning point was when I was retrenched from CNetAsia as GameSpotAsia's Webmaster. My life started going downhill from there. Not financially but rather it affected my self esteem and confidence. Somehow or other, now, I seem to lack confidence in whatever I do always apprehensive of the fact that whatever I can do, someone else can do it better. Of course it's a fact but then, I feel the need to prove myself to myself.
It's ironical but especially in photography, I've always felt that I've got a long way to go. There are encouraging times as well but somehow, I've always felt the need to compare myself to others out there. To see if I can even reach their levels and capability. I've always wanted the best yet I feel that I can never do my best. As the ACS motto goes, "The Best is Yet to Be" and this is definitely affecting me.
I guess instead of keeping up at night thinking of death and what it brings, I should contemplate on how I can live and make my life useful. Find the meaning of "Why I am born", "Why am I here" and "What is my purpose in life". It definitely can't just be to procreate. I have a purpose. I just haven't found out what it is yet. I have a place in this universe. In this consciousness. It's mind boggling and downright disheartening to know that I've yet to discover my purpose and what I want after all these years.
I've lived for the moment before. Seized the day in the past. Often, seizing the day means regretting something later. I've learned to live without regret since it's usually a waste of time. So's gloating by the way. Perhaps I should just concentrate on work.
I feel so alone in this world. Like nobody understands. I'm trying to explain to my loved ones what's going on but the words don't seem to be coming out right. I write here looking for solace and welcome any should it come. I just hope that soon, I will discover it for I don't seem to be able to handle it much longer. Am I a chronic silent depressive? I don't know although I hope that I'm not. Am I whining about my life and how pathetic it is contrary to my previous posts? Perhaps I am, perhaps I'm not. I'm self contradictory I suppose. My what I decide to put down on this page solely depends on my thoughts of the moment.
This might serve as a reminder in the future should I find myself and my purpose what I went through to find it.
I never questioned her but she promoted a junior over me. I wasn't sour at the fact that I wasn't made second six but it disappointed me that I had to forgo leadership due to something that was beyond my control. Somehow, that made me feel to this day that I have little control over my life.
Which brings me to reason why I enjoy driving so much. Why? Simply because I feel that I'm in control. The destination is determined by me, the route is determined by me and the speed and control of the vehicle is determined by me. Mom once asked me why I enjoyed driving so much. Well, I guess now that I've thought about it for more than 15 years, this is the reason.
My second turning point was when I was retrenched from CNetAsia as GameSpotAsia's Webmaster. My life started going downhill from there. Not financially but rather it affected my self esteem and confidence. Somehow or other, now, I seem to lack confidence in whatever I do always apprehensive of the fact that whatever I can do, someone else can do it better. Of course it's a fact but then, I feel the need to prove myself to myself.
It's ironical but especially in photography, I've always felt that I've got a long way to go. There are encouraging times as well but somehow, I've always felt the need to compare myself to others out there. To see if I can even reach their levels and capability. I've always wanted the best yet I feel that I can never do my best. As the ACS motto goes, "The Best is Yet to Be" and this is definitely affecting me.
I guess instead of keeping up at night thinking of death and what it brings, I should contemplate on how I can live and make my life useful. Find the meaning of "Why I am born", "Why am I here" and "What is my purpose in life". It definitely can't just be to procreate. I have a purpose. I just haven't found out what it is yet. I have a place in this universe. In this consciousness. It's mind boggling and downright disheartening to know that I've yet to discover my purpose and what I want after all these years.
I've lived for the moment before. Seized the day in the past. Often, seizing the day means regretting something later. I've learned to live without regret since it's usually a waste of time. So's gloating by the way. Perhaps I should just concentrate on work.
I feel so alone in this world. Like nobody understands. I'm trying to explain to my loved ones what's going on but the words don't seem to be coming out right. I write here looking for solace and welcome any should it come. I just hope that soon, I will discover it for I don't seem to be able to handle it much longer. Am I a chronic silent depressive? I don't know although I hope that I'm not. Am I whining about my life and how pathetic it is contrary to my previous posts? Perhaps I am, perhaps I'm not. I'm self contradictory I suppose. My what I decide to put down on this page solely depends on my thoughts of the moment.
This might serve as a reminder in the future should I find myself and my purpose what I went through to find it.
Monday, July 11, 2005
14 March...but it's not today :P
Your Birthdate: March 14 |
With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it. You have a tendency to shirk responsibility. |
New found friends...
Mainey has a new guy in her life!!!!! I'm completely devastated!!! Not that I ever met up to her standards, expectations and mentality but then again, it's still devastating nonetheless.
Hehehe...I'm just putting this down to irk her anyways. She claims to be smart...I don't doubt it but smarter than me? Dream on girl! Anyway, I've been communicating with a couple of new found friends. It's nice to know that once in a while you have a listening ear especially when you're being ignored elsewhere (i.e. Home).
To be fair, I haven't been all that fantastic myself. Oftentimes I've realized that I can be rather childish. Well, what can I say? Old habits die hard. Anyhow...that's how I look now. Gosh I can do with a massive haircut. Maybe army 4x2 would be good for me...like the other picture.
No idea what to do...lol...except that I don't wanna end up looking like a geek. Which has happened before. I even had a leather pocket protector. Gosh..just like those mission controllers but of course they adamantly deny owning one.
News just occurred to me that SASCA's sound challenge is for SQ (Sound Quality) and not SPL (Sound Pressure Level). If I do go for SQ, that means my setup will have to change completely. Thomas will have to be back in town to check out the system. Hope he comes back soon. I've got my trip up north this thursday. I'm still a little apprehensive about it cause it's going to take me 4 days to do something that's worth only 1 day. Argh...the dilemma!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Cleaning day...
I've finally managed to spare some time to do some cleaning up. Gosh, it's been a while. Managed to get a snapshot of home after doing the cleaning up. Could I life be better? I'd say it could but honestly, I'm not really complaining. Well, once in a while maybe.
I don't know why but I'm still totally unimpressed with the XBox. I guess I'm a tough nut to crack. But I'm totally impressed with the PSP cause wow! In such a small package! The graphics are just mind boggling.
I need a haircut! People are gonna start calling me either Sasquatch or the abominable snowman! Gosh. You know, a good thriller's only as good as the supporting soundtrack and motion picture score. Can you imagine watching a movie where there's only dialogue and no background music? Kinda sucky eh?
Yeah...well...I guess that's what my weekend's filled with. Oh I still love and respect the amount of effort put into the Singapore Science Centre. Even after all these years, it still brings back memories of me when I was about 9, going there with my granddad who's since passed on. I still have that photo we took with the Mercedes 280SE buried somewhere.
Ah...the nostalgia. I'm such a nostalgic guy...
Whiners...
Okay...I've read quite a few blogs and found that many a time, the authors are complaining or whining about their lives and how miserable they are etc etc... It's interesting cause I suppose that could be the best way to generate self pity. It's most effective especially for women.
The usual "I hate my life", "I hate my job", "I hate not having enough money" entries. If you read enough of these, you'd think that it's the same person writing all these entries. C'mon! Obviously we're too pampered and spoiled and selfish. Everyone's concerned about their own little problems, their own little world. I guess the fault lies partially in the lack of social skills that people are getting from being on the internet all the time.
The might have "netiquette" but lack social etiquette. Oh well.
Last night was an event for UE. It started late so I ended leaving late as well. Maritus Mandarin definitely has one of the lamer carparks...it's 1) Narrow, 2) Expensive (Parking there from 5.30pm to about 12.30am was $7.00) and 3) Difficult to get out of.
I must take my hat off to the CEO of UE. They do give back to the community by donating to Metta School and MINDS. They also had some kids from both organizations perform. The MINDS kids were most impressive. All of them suffers from some form of intellectual disability or other. Yet, they were always smiling, happy to perform and ever so excited.
Oh and by the way, for those out there who are whining about their pathetic lives etc, there are many people worse off.
The usual "I hate my life", "I hate my job", "I hate not having enough money" entries. If you read enough of these, you'd think that it's the same person writing all these entries. C'mon! Obviously we're too pampered and spoiled and selfish. Everyone's concerned about their own little problems, their own little world. I guess the fault lies partially in the lack of social skills that people are getting from being on the internet all the time.
The might have "netiquette" but lack social etiquette. Oh well.
Last night was an event for UE. It started late so I ended leaving late as well. Maritus Mandarin definitely has one of the lamer carparks...it's 1) Narrow, 2) Expensive (Parking there from 5.30pm to about 12.30am was $7.00) and 3) Difficult to get out of.
I must take my hat off to the CEO of UE. They do give back to the community by donating to Metta School and MINDS. They also had some kids from both organizations perform. The MINDS kids were most impressive. All of them suffers from some form of intellectual disability or other. Yet, they were always smiling, happy to perform and ever so excited.
Oh and by the way, for those out there who are whining about their pathetic lives etc, there are many people worse off.
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