I've read in books about parenting, fathers having the feeling of loss and neglect after a child is born. It's never been evident to me until now. I stay over at the MIL's and yet, SY chooses to ignore me most of the night. Well, it's either ignore me or dump the kid on my lap while she enjoys a round of ice-cream.
It's not that I don't want to take care of Darren but the fact of the matter is, I feel that we should do it together and not one at a time parenting. Anyway, we went to watch "The Stepford Wives" and I must say, that I was quite entertained if not for the fact that GV at Marina South totally sucks now. You'd have to walk a huge round just to get to the damn cinema and even so, the signs were inadequate.
I was pretty ticked off by the fact that it was such a long walk, and the fact that we got lost since I parked at Pan Pacific Hotel side and it takes a fucking hike to timbuctoo in order to get access to MS shopping centre from Pan Pac Hotel. I then decided to move the friggin car instead. I feel that patrons should be warned at entry or at the carpark that it would take a fucking long walk to reach the shopping centre even though it's the same fucking carpark in the same fucking building.
I've not stepped into MS for some time and will probably not do so again for a while to come. The MC and/or contractor should at least have that half a brain to allow patrons walking space in between renovation sites. Obviously, whoever came up with the idea of the renovation and implemented it doesn't have any common sense at all. No wonder the mall's deserted.
Worrying about being late for the movie, I had to settle for a quick bite at Burger King which incidentally, is not my favourite fast food joint. Their fries suck and they really need to work on their front counter staff's skills. MacDonald's is way more efficient. One up for the big boys. That in itself already began to show signs of an evening that wasn't meant to be enjoyable for me.
At least the movie was entertaining. If nothing else was. Maine SMSed me during the movie and I didn't return the call till after. Turns out, she's got someone asking her out on a date tomorrow. She's so worried about the date tomorrow and the disaster that will ensue. Well, my advice is to bite the bullet and take things one step at a time. Well, that's not my entire solution to her. I shan't blog it so only she and I and probably Manda know about it for the time being.
Yeah I'm a big fan of latin quotes. So what? Everyone needs a vice or two. Go figure.
It's fucking hot and I really do not like staying over at MIL's. I just feel uncomforatable here. That's all. My keyboard is beginning to fuck up since I'm down to using the ultra-portable to blog. My notebook seems to be having trouble connecting to the wireless network that exists here. Obviously it wasn't set up by me.
There comes a time, when a man feels so neglected that his sense of belonging disappears and he just wants to be left completely alone. I think I'm feeling one of those times. Yes, I love getting all the attention. So what? I'm selfish and conceited. Big deal.
Well, it looks like everyone wants to sleep now and the pressure on me to sleep as well is mounting. I hate this feeling. I hate being here. I hate everything. Ah...complaints complaints.
Well, I'm sorry if you have to read it but this is just my fucked up mood at the moment.
LostSpirit
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