Reflections

Every day, every minute, every second draws us closer to death. If I was a doctor, and someone said to me, "Doctor, I'm dying" my reply would be "We're all dying". It's a rather pessimistic way of looking at life and living but I just realised that as we age, death looms just around the corner. Rather morbid thought at 3am I must say.

I radio's belching some music that I've no idea who it is composed or sung by. It just sounds good at this time. 3 empty coke cans sit on my coffee table. Boy am I addicted to it or what.

I was surprised that KopiTiam @ NUH did not have any eggs to serve this morning. I would think that of all places, KopiTiam would have plenty of stock. They must've swiped some home for their own consumption.

I've just completed watching The Twin Towers. It's pretty good. I am surprised that I didn't fancy watching the Trilogy in the cinema. There are a couple of movies that I'd want to watch though but they've come and gone. Oh well, I suppose I'll have to catch them on DVD. It rained heartily earlier this evening so now, the air is cool and fresh. Its freshness only spoilt by the smell of smoke emitting from the lighted tip of my cigarette.

A few lights on several apartment block are on here and there. I guess there are more people than me suffering from chronic insomnia. They're usually the same ones that remain on night after night. The air is cool preventing me from turning on the fan. I've got the balcony light on and that's the only light source that I'm typing this by. The laptop's screen does seem to be a little glaring though.

I feel that I'm at peace with myself. I haven't felt this relieved for quite a while. Darren's operation went smoothly without a hitch. That's a pretty good sign. Another note that I should make is that his ultrasound scan turned out negative for a hole in the heart but positive for narrowing arteries around the heart and thus the murmour that was heard by the anesthesist.

Vanilla ice-cream with milo powder on top. That's my latest concoction for dessert. Tastes wonderful. I haven't enjoyed a good dessert in a while and I'm thus indulging myself for the time being. Of course, a can of root beer right now would be perfect as well but I suppose I can't have the cake and eat it...or can I?

I've been pretty isolated for the past couple of days. Probably because I'm stressed out by the fact that Darren's gone for surgery. I saw some other kids in PICU which stands for Paediatric Intensive Care Unit. I can only try to imagine what the parents of those kids must be going through keeping toil day and night. How fragile life is.

The breeze right now is wonderful. I'm drifting to thoughts of the time I spend in Vancouver and going speedboating at horseshoe bay with Jason. Those were the days. My memories of the place dart back and forth since it has been more than 10 years since then.

I have little memories of Perth though...probably because the place was so boring that I almost died. I must say though, that I did enjoy the semester I was there, staying in student housing @ Mt Lawley campus, being with a bunch of rather crazy pals.

I do remember with great detail, the time I spent the whole night at Brian's 7-11 branch in Canada, and immediately after that, the next morning, we drove to Whistler and had a brilliant day of skiing. It was rather tiring at the end of the day when we had to make the 2+ hour drive back home though, remembering that we didn't sleep the night before. We kicked ass on the black diamond slope though, tackling the moguls with adrenaline-rushed enthusiasm.

Ah...to be skiing again. Well, the next best thing here to do is to go roller-blading. Dammit if I can't find my sunglasses though.